7.40pm Just finish my dinner it's long time i have not update any words on my blog today i got alot of feeling for me to express in word's i knock off early at 5pm i need to go to fetch dad today from his work place because of his leg's his age catching up and his leg giving him problem he can't walk up the stair and even too weak to lift up his leg and this is the first time i feel that dad is really getting into aging i ask him to quit his cleaner job as it too hard work for him i think at the moment now it a hard time for me too both of them not working i think i have to cut down all my expenses and the responsibility on my shoulder once again getting much more heavier and the worst thing is not about that is this word's 4D they pit all their hope on 4D when they are in need for cash and as for mum she even use the allowance i give her to fulfill her hope and that what i hate most and i don't know how to talk to her anymore she just can't listen to me luckily there is a hope for me at the moment i got myself a better job as a network origination controller at least the pay is much better then what i get now inreturn i have to sacrifice all my weekend and public hoilday this month i have to spend more time with my love one's or else when i start with that job i have to put all my time focusing on this job so that i can get my confirmation faster